scrambled thoughts.
sitting here with nothing to do for the past hour has got me thinking… it’s starting to hit that my whole high school career is coming to an end. it’s really scary, actually. i’ve always had a stable foundation to build my life around. always had my family. always had my friends. always had an ‘out’ if i needed one. and now everything’s on me. i guess since ive always had everything handed to me so easily growing up, not having that kind of dependence scares me. i just realized that i applied to go to school by myself… that school isnt just a walk away anymore. that i’m going to be dealing with finances within a year’s time. ISNT IT CRAZY? is it just me? i mean… i’ve filled out things i had no idea about, up until i actually came across it this past year. i guess this is my own fault. for being so dependent and unaware of the life happening in front of me. for letting others do what i could’ve done for myself. i’ve been so caught up trying to grow up, that i’ve been doing everything BUT that. i guess i have a few months to get my shit together. but in all seriousness, i think this is my wake up call. time for little vee to grow up. (it would be inappropriate to put fuck it senior year :(… BUT 9 DAYS LEFTTTTTTTT GUYS!)
